You-Want's Life

Perhaps we human beings change too quickly that we refuse to acknowledge how much we have evolved over a period of time. In merely a year ’s time, I saw myself transforming from an outgoing social butterfly to a mole who prefers to lock myself up in the room. I figured that maybe my repulsion against the community’s behaviours around me has grown so large to the extent which I cannot bear immersing myself in such a pool of unwelcomed voices anymore.   I try my best to keep the same expression everywhere I go. I give the same smile, the same gestures and the same length of answers. I maintain the same image in front of teachers and friends. This defines me. I am the one version of myself which I find extremely tough to switch. Unlike the many of yous in my surrounding who tend to keep different masks on. Perhaps there is the playful one with friends; the stern one with teachers; the weak one with the unknown. Don’t you feel tired? To me I really do, that’s why I stopped pr...

So this is one of the many meditating nights. Back in school for a new start, I have been more involved in the management of my boarding house. I realised that many of my juniors are beyond adorable, humorous and amiable. I spent my entire first year in school, not wanting to know more about these people. What was wrong with me? Juniors are like the musical notes of a boarding house. This is where they spend their young and immature days, to be polished into confident adults with leadership qualities and sense of responsibility. I am glad that my way of approach suited the many personalities in my boarding house. Trying to get to know them include the effort of sharing my personal experience in many life situations, and thus inspiring them to seek courageous solutions to problems and build stronger interpersonal skills. I reached out, hoping that my juniors feel included and safe. I portray a role as the figure I hardly had when I was at their age- I am the big brother.  ...