You-Want's Life

I just read the letter I wrote for my current self from December 2017. And I... genuinely feel sorry for that hopeful guy who once held beautiful visions of his 2018. It turned out a roller coaster. One driving through hectic stack of work; heavy depressing mess of emotions; mistrust and fear. I don't mean it was an entire year of pain and sorrow. It has, in fact, been a year of growth. I have pushed myself out there by doing a busking performance and giving a live talk on stage. Whose life has got no downfalls, disappointments and worries? No one. Only that I emphasised on mine too much that I dropped into this dark abyss that I couldn't crawl out of. I don't see myself as a depression patient. It wasn't it. It was period. It was too much fear drawn from comparisons with the past. And it took a lot of courage, and a change of environment to finally get better. I had a really hard time pushing myself through in the beginning of the year. I was in a puddle o...

I started using Instagram, for the love of photography. I have since used it as a platform to share photos of daily life items, food, scenery and so many other things. It was a training ground for my photography skills. Well, I am very aware that I am still not super professional at this stage, but I am beyond proud to have created a number of shots which I find aesthetically pleasant. They became a face of my own, a style I call my own. These branches are like entangled emotions; I sometimes feel them, but never find the right words to express them. It's both weird and interesting to see these written across pictures. Started off with pictures of floras against the sky in various shades at different time, I see the contrasting colours as a mystery.  I like stories that comes in colours and shades of light. The flowers in my picture often paint a light dust of anonymity in the stories I have deep in my heart.  And I started taking extreme measure...